Dress Shopping

I coudn't remember what day it was today....had to double check. It is THURSDAY and I have a project due tomorrow...at 1:00. So much crap to do....yet I am sitting infront of the computer typing this. I haven't had a chance to check my mail...it has almost been two days. Everything I do has to do with school...so tiring...I have to leave everything else...and just focus on school. I have a wedding to go to on Saturday. EVERYONE in my family (mom, dad, sister...cousin, aunts...everyone!!) had bought their dresses/clothes for the wedding except me. Yesterday my class ended at 6 which is early....so I decided to go to the mall real quick to see if I could find something....since I wouldn't have a chance to buy anything later on. My sister came with me and we went to a couple of different stores. I finally found TWO dresses! TWOOOOOO! I liked the both very much and I couldn't decide between them so I got both~

This one does not look thaaat formal....therefore I must dress it up somehow.... I love the color....it has a gradient.....from dark to light~

This one looks like crap in this picture.....OMG...it looks sooo good when I wear it....I really love this dress...because I can wear it a lot and it looks very sophisticated.....I don't feel like myself in it hahahaha~

I have a pair of black shoes....I could wear them with both dresses....I just don't know what to do with my hair....I was thinking of a low cute ponytail...since I have bangs....I dunno~~~

OKAY! I have to go and work on my project now....it's getting late!

Done with 2/15 weeks!

Before I write anything I just want to say THANK YOU to everyone. Your words really really really helped. This past week and a half I have re-read all the comments...over and over again....and your words really comforted me. Thank you....I feel so lucky~ So....school. It's freakin hard. Not hard like....omg I need to study...well I do have Physics....but I'm not even thinking about that class right now. These are the classes I have:

World Architecture 1 Design Communication 1 Physics II Design Studio 1A: Principles & Processes Transition to Woodbury

My main architecture classes are Studio and Design....Everyday a project is due and everyday we get assigned a new project due the next time we meet. It's exhausting because you don't feel like the work ever ends...I mean...it doesn't...but like...there are no breaks....so it feels like a never ending cycle. I have so much crap to do...At times I feel miserable....like....I just sit there and stare off....and think to myself.."how the fuck am I supposed to get all this crap done?"

We have had three reviews already.....and they have been very successful! My Studio professor is pretty nice...he seems to like my stuff so far....but I want to get better and better...I want to learn as much as I can from him.... My Design prof....this guy is great.....I used to have an awesome physics professor last year....he was around 55 and was scary as hell.....my design professor is like a younger version of my physics professor....The entire class is scared of him except me....cause I got used to Professor Gerz (physics).....this guy seems so nice compared to him hahaha~ He is very strict...but like...you can tell he cares....so I'm happy...just wish he didn't give us so many projects!!!

Physics is stupid....it's not hard at the moment.....I don't want to think about how hectic everything is gonna be later on in the semester....ughh. World Architecture is like a history class....we learn about architecture from all types of places. Transition to Woodbury is a 1 unit class where we just talk about the transition to an architecture class....we get to talk to the head of our department about any worries we have....we talk to other students that are in our situation...and you relate to each other....I think it's a very helpful class.

When I get settled even more...I wanna show you guys my studio....All the 1st years are in the same studio....it's like a loooooooooong hall that is sectioned of into four sections.....with lots of desks. Everyone has their own desk. Mine is right in corner by the door. I built a "compartment" underneath my desk and added two doors and locks on it...so I can store some of my stuff there. It gets heavy to carry around. I must rememeber to take pictures!

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I took this during our 2nd review with my cell phone. My Professor can't been seen...he is blocked my the guy wearing black. My project is the three posters...that sort of look alike.

OKAY! I wrote too much. Again...I just want to say thank you~!

PS. Ten years ago...on the 4th of September.....I moved to the US from Sweden.....I just realized.....TEN YEARS.......I can't believe it.

exhausted

i have never felt so alone and insecure and depressed and hopeless and sad and scared and confused....i mean...i had no idea how huge this change was gonna be. School is tough...and I was ready for that....but the environment in which im gonna be working in is just so different....and the hours i have to spend there are just so crazy.....and the stuff that is being asked of me...is so strange....I'm not used to it. I have to admit that I am not good with change. I feel stupid and little in this school....I feel like I'm never gonna finish...yet I look around and see the other students who have been in my position...I see that it is possible....but for some stupid reason..that doesnt comfort me. There are so many things I am worried about. The biggest one being FAILURE.....im just afraid that I'm gonna be horrible. I am way to negative....which is not like me....that's why I'm scared. I'm always positive about things....so when I start thinking thoughts like these....I feel like the world is ending. I know i am very naive.....im not as aggressive as I should be....i dont ask as many question like other students do.....i always think to myself...try to figure things out internally...and I have a hard time socializing with new people....i feel really awkward at school. So not only am I stressed academically....but i feel like the social aspect of this school is making me even worse. All I think about is being at home with my family....its really lame. I HOPE.....that things will get better very soon....because im so drained....and its only the third day. im really sorry for writing this post like this....one huge ugly paragraph....i just want to get my thoughts out. also..im sorry if i dont make sense!

LAST DAY OF FREEDOM

LOLO IS SAD
That's how I feel today. Constantly thinking about tomorrow....new school...new people....ughhh....I'm nervous and sad that school is starting again.....don't know what to expect. This always happens to me....the day before...I count down the hours...get sad everytime I remember that school is starting...Hopefully the day will go by quickly~ UGHHHHHHHHHH I DON'T WANT SCHOOL TO START......it's really hot outside (94 degrees).....they should wait till the weather cools down to start school...cause people might faint while walking to class...due to the combination of overheating and depression....