A Year Later

I have wanted to write something here for a very long time but I felt like I couldn't put my thoughts to words. The last year has been a rollercoaster. Right now the rollercoaster is heading upward as I am preparing to move to New York for a few months for a graphic design course. I am super excited but very nervous at the same time. I haven't been to school in a few years and I am embarking on journey in a direction I never thought I'd go on. I try to remind myself that it is normal to feel nervous at a time like this.

In the past year I've been painting a lot - A LOT! It's been wonderful but also tiring. I would come home from a full day at work, eat a quick dinner, do a quick workout, and then draw late into the night. Even though I've been tired physically - emotionally I've never felt better.

Now I'm preparing for New York. I leave in a week! I'm hoping to update here more frequently <3

Here's a watercolor painting I've done for my dad's office (kind of creepy). I'm hoping to make a print out of this before I leave. **FINGERSCROSSED**

exhausted & happy

The face of pure exhaustion.

Guess which one is mine.

Needed some help pinning everything up the night before.

That redbull next to my friend's project.

Post-presentation snack and silliness.

Eyy it's over. Don't have anything to say right now since I'm feeling strange. Gonna get ready for graduation now~ Hope you guys are doing well <3

SUPER HAPPYYYYYYYY NOTTTTT

I'm aliveeeee. 3 days left. I have to be COMPLETELY done by 10 pm on Friday. They want us to have a good nights sleep before the review on Saturday so we don't sound like idiots while presenting from lack of sleep....although I have a feeling I'm gonna end up sounding stupid anyway. I dislike presenting very much. I'm not one to speak infront of crowds of people voluntarily but for five years, that's what I've been forced to do...and even though I've done it so much, I still dislike it. It's the wait that kills it for me....that nervousness building up. WHATEVER. ANYWAY. My uncle is hereeeee. My family went and picked him up from the airport earlier today while I was working. I drove over to my aunts house to visit him (that's where he's staying for now) for an hour before heading back to my work. I'm happy he's here...my mom loves him very much...it will be good for her to be with him. From all of her siblings, she is the closest to my uncle. It's a shame they have to be so far apart.

My sister crocheted me this scarf as a 'good luck' charm. The A/C blows right on my head in studio...so I'm either wearing a beanie/hoodie/or this scarf as a headwrap. I LIKE IT.

OKAY BYE. (HAVE A GOOD WEEK!!!)

PS!!!! Thank you so much for all of your kind words and encouragments. They are like doses of energy <3

ONE WEEK LEFT

The past week. It has been torturous despite all the happy faces hahaha. I'm not looking forward to this coming week. It is going to be disgustingly terrible. I can feel it. Totoro has been there for me through it all. On Tuesday/Wednesday (it was....technically Wednesday since it was three in the morning) I had a random internal breakdown because the girl next to me was crying and the one behind me wasn't happy either. I felt lonely and sad and I wanted to walk home to get away from it all but I couldn't because it's not safeee to walk home alone so late/early. So I just sat there and watched episodes of 3rd Rock from the Sun instead.

A week from now....at this exact moment...I will be surrounded by my friends partying it upppp because I will be done with this crapppppp yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Until then.....gotta watch some more episodes of 3rd Rock and and produce drawingssss. SEND ME ALL THE LUCK IN THE WORLD PLEASE. ALL OF IT.

<3