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Had an upside down week which ended on a better note. Hung out in Pasadena a lot this week. My sister and I wanted to walk around on Colorado where all the stores are. We didn't buy anything but we had fun window shopping. It was incredibly hot so it was pretty stupid of us to walk under the sun. On Saturday I was in Pasadena again. Even hotter this time. There was an art show we wanted to go to at the Armory. It was alright. We had more fun afterward....when we walked around in the scorching sun and then rewarded ourselves with sweets.

After Pasadena...we all went home to recover from the heat and then we went to downtown LA and walked around. Ended the night with billiards in Sherman Oaks.

It feels good to hang out with people. I dread when it's time to go home! I always want the night to last as long as possible. This fear kicks in and makes me forget that I will see my friends again - that this isn't the last time we'll hang out hahaha.

Summer is here

Sorry for the long absence. I think I needed it though. I felt like I needed to get away for a while. So what have I been up to? I've been hanging out with my friends and loved ones. I have visited Vegas, Santa Barbara, Irvine, and San Diego and I'm planning more trips here and there. I've hung out with friends late at nights at random cafe to sketch or talk. I've been taking naps at Korean spas after OD-ing on boba. I have been running everyday and I recently started playing tennis again and I've stayed up late at nights to play Starcraft. It's been good. I have also been dealing with a lot of difficult things. Heavy things that sometimes makes me question why I should even bother to do anything at all. Luckily I have very persistant friends that are always here to make me forget the sad things for a little bit. I worry a lot about my mom. I worry a lot about the future of my family. We've been through a lot and everyday is a challenge. I'm lucky to have a strong family but I still worry every single moment that I'm awake.

To distract myself, I've been working on my portfolio....slowly starting to build up my resume so I can start applying to different places. But the best distraction has been to paint. When school ended I was burnt out and I didn't want to create anything. Now I have finally started to paint again for myself and it's exciting and fun. I want to be more creative because it allows me to feel free. My family situation has chained down to a certain degree. I feel trapped sometimes and I think that I'm subconsciously trying to escape through painting.

Anyway. I'll keep it at that. I'm happy to be back. I needed to be away so I could miss it.

Summer is here~

PS. Jing <3 Thank you so much for your sweet words~ I miss you too

exhausted & happy

The face of pure exhaustion.

Guess which one is mine.

Needed some help pinning everything up the night before.

That redbull next to my friend's project.

Post-presentation snack and silliness.

Eyy it's over. Don't have anything to say right now since I'm feeling strange. Gonna get ready for graduation now~ Hope you guys are doing well <3

SUPER HAPPYYYYYYYY NOTTTTT

I'm aliveeeee. 3 days left. I have to be COMPLETELY done by 10 pm on Friday. They want us to have a good nights sleep before the review on Saturday so we don't sound like idiots while presenting from lack of sleep....although I have a feeling I'm gonna end up sounding stupid anyway. I dislike presenting very much. I'm not one to speak infront of crowds of people voluntarily but for five years, that's what I've been forced to do...and even though I've done it so much, I still dislike it. It's the wait that kills it for me....that nervousness building up. WHATEVER. ANYWAY. My uncle is hereeeee. My family went and picked him up from the airport earlier today while I was working. I drove over to my aunts house to visit him (that's where he's staying for now) for an hour before heading back to my work. I'm happy he's here...my mom loves him very much...it will be good for her to be with him. From all of her siblings, she is the closest to my uncle. It's a shame they have to be so far apart.

My sister crocheted me this scarf as a 'good luck' charm. The A/C blows right on my head in studio...so I'm either wearing a beanie/hoodie/or this scarf as a headwrap. I LIKE IT.

OKAY BYE. (HAVE A GOOD WEEK!!!)

PS!!!! Thank you so much for all of your kind words and encouragments. They are like doses of energy <3