I walked for an hour today in the morning while everyone was still asleep. I need to be alone for some time everyday to just think and try to relax from whatever it is that’s stressing me out and walking helps with that. My thoughts usually flood me during the night but that used to exhaust me because I wouldn’t get any sleep, so now I try to walk around the neighborhood before bedtime.
Today I happened to walk in the morning because I woke up from a stressful dream and the best way to get rid of the weird feeling was to walk. I saw so many beautiful flowers….my neighbors have good taste! There is one lady who lives ten minutes away from my house…she has the cutest front yard. So many different types of plants and flowers! Her yard is very small but it’s still filled with plants~ I always walk by her house on my nightly walks…I hope she doesn’t think I’m a creeper…I just love her yard so much~ I want my future house to be like that….a small house that is cosy and surrounded by nature. Her house is very eclectic. I love that. Reminded me of The Borrower Arrietty <3
Another thing related to stress (maybe???) was something that has plagued me for the past two months. My hair was falling out! A month before my studio final I realized something was wrong with the amount of hair falling out and I freaked out which made matters worse, so I tried not to think about it, but that didn’t help either. After school ended, my hair was still falling out so I decided to just cut it short…shoulder length. It makes so sense…I know…cutting it is not gonna make it fall out any less, but whatever. It’s been two weeks now that my hair has returned to it’s former self…I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been exercising regularly again or if I’ve been taking too many fish oil tablets….not sure, but I’m happy~ My dad says it might be from stress, but I feel as much stress now as I did a month ago…so I don’t know.
I went to my hairdresser with my sister today because she wants to change her hair color and I thought about cutting my hair/coloring it just because she was going to. I felt desperate…wanting to change something out of the blue…but then I really looked at myselfwhen I got home and thought “it’s great as it is”…I like my hair. So no cut for me~
I’m gonna go to bed now! I’ll leave this Armenian lullaby here~ Hope you have a wonderful week <3